Tuesday, 26 August 2008

Anxiety - more medication

The second group of Austrian students arrived,


and departed.

It was another enjoyable encounter for both Marie and me. The girls were chatty and cheerful, but didn't interact with Joe & Orla as much as the first group.

While they were here, Marie was srill coping with the side effects of her medication. The adverse side effects have been reducing and the doctor increased the dose again - this time there have been no obvious changes to her mood.

So, has medication changed Marie?

Well, yes, I think so.

Her general level of anxiety is much reduced. But maybe it would have anyway? I don't know.

She has many more panic attacks than before and some of them are very intense. Yesterday she had a panic attack which included a spell where breathing was almost impossible for her. This is very unusual for Marie. Oddly, she seems unconcerned by this increase in the frequency of her panic attacks.

Her attitude is much more positive. She is spending much more quality time with the children and they are responding to this by giving her lots more affection. She has begun CBT sessions. She has regained her optimism.

Marie has set herself a goal - to get a dog. This is the first specific goal which Marie has set herself since I met her more than 8 years ago! The deal I have made with her is that she can get one when she is able to walk outside enough to let the dog go to the toilet. I don't normally interfere with Marie's aspirations, but on this occasion I am unwilling to take on the extra responsibility of looking after a dog, so if Marie is to have one, she will have to provide at least some of the care required. So far she has managed 15 steps from our front door. This may not seem much of an achievement, but it's 13 more steps than last week!

An yes...for those of you who read my last post...the increased libido is still here :-) !!


Coffeecup said...

Thrilled to learn Marie's mood is improving because it's easier to fight the panic when you feel optimistic. Must be horrid to have intense frequent panic, but if it's the meds guess it ought to subside? Personally that's one reason why I find medication intolerable. Hats off to her, Marie's got huge strength and perseverance and with you there to provide comfort and consolation the future is certainly looking a little more rosy than before.

So more young ladies in the household? Want another one from the North West? Sounds like a lot of fun, and as they say, 'variety is the spice of life!' It's brilliant to have this kind of interaction with people. Good on you guys! Take care and have fun!

rosiero said...

Whoopee to your last sentence!!! So glad she is getting more confidence.

As a dog-owner, I agree with your stance. A dog is a huge commitment - something too many people take on board lightly. A dog will soon become bored and neurotic if not allowed some exercise and socialising with other dogs. Just letting it out into the garden or taking it a few steps along the road is not enough. It need to be able to walk briskly round the block or off the lead in woods or a park to get sufficient exercise or to be able to meet with other dogs. Some breeds such as border collies need a lot of constant mental stimulation (to compensate for not rounding up sheep!). I believe greyhounds are the the breed least likely to want big walks. They rely on short sharp bursts of activity (as in greyhound racing ) but easily tire and will spend the rest of the day lounging on the sofa.

I think it is great that Marie has set herself this goal and by the looks of it is slowly reaching that point where her dream will become her reality, but you are right to delay actually getting the dog until she is fully there.

Kit Courteney said...

Lovely to see your blog in bold on my feed list, and how very positive!

I'm taking my hat off to Marie too. The goal of getting a dog is wonderful and with improvements of number of steps like that, it seems a very achievable goal too.

Continued success to you all :0)

Virginia said...

I suffer from occasional (OK, probably more than I'm willing to admit) social anxiety and It's refreshing to read a blog that deals with the topics.

Robert said...

Thanks everyone for your support. Marie's dream of becoming a dog owner is as strong as ever. However, there is no progress on that front to report. This is due, at least in part, to her taking a break at her parents' house for a couple of weeks, followed by all the upheaval of the children starting a new school year. Her CBT sessions ceased during this period.

Marie continues to have a positive outlook and is to resume her CBT sessions next week.

maz said...

Hi, I'm glad things are still on a positive note for Marie.

Take care,
maz x